This is my first real semester of grad school and I will admit that there are times when I find myself wondering if I shouldn't just give up on some of the things in my life. It's not the grad school. That part has been great! Having the opportunity and the driving force to push myself to pursue the creation of new art work is just what I needed. It's all the other things that keep popping up that make me question my decision. Some of the people in my life have had some pretty serious health issue this semester, which makes getting into the studio more challenging. One of my jobs, rather than being the creative cradle that I had hoped it would be, is turning out to be a real challenge, and not necessarily in a good way, though I think it's still going to be a learning opportunity for me. I've even been challenged by seemingly little things like bad firings.
So, what makes me stay? Why not just move on to something easier? Because, honestly, I can't see myself living without clay and not taking my art to the high level that I want it to be. I could easily be a hobbyist potter, making things after my 9-5 job that are pretty and easy, but I really don't think that I would be happy settling.
So, that's where I'm at with this whole "grad school" thing. Just a few more weeks to buckle down and get things done, but I do feel that things are starting to come together. I just need to stay focused regardless of what life throws at me.