For the last three years I have had a clearly defined path with the goal of completing my MFA. Now that I am rapidly approaching the end of this degree program, I find myself wondering what's next? The direction that I had wanted to go doesn't really seem possible and I'm realizing that I will need either a different job or an additional one than the one that I have now. The important part is making sure that my kids are taken care of, which may mean that I have to make rent.
My graduate professor told me that, as people finish up their time in the MFA program, it's not unusual for couples to reevaluate their relationships and sometimes things can change dramatically for them. I have suddenly found myself in a situation where I feel that everything that I knew and relied on in my marriage is changing and I am struggling to understand those changes. As a result, my goals seem to be rapidly changing. I am currently searching for a full time job and I realize that this job may not be in the arts. This is not necessarily a bad thing, as I am sure I would need a job after graduation; that was always the plan, anyway. Perhaps starting a new job now that I'm so close to completing my degree is a good idea. The job market is strong and this way I will have something once I've completed my degree. I do still plan to complete my degree, though, so don't worry about that. All I have left to do is complete work for my thesis show and produce a catalog for that show.
I suppose that one advantage of the changing rules in my marriage is that there will be a lot more options open to me as an arts educator once my degree is finished. I no longer feel that I have to stay in the Denver area. University jobs outside of Denver can now be an option once the time comes, which is a good thing.
But, yes, the question of what to do and where to go looms large right now. I just need to keep faith and remember that things will work out in the end, no matter what.